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All the Way Down
04:12
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I'm aging at the factory
I'm aging at the beach
I'm aging when I’m laughing
Or when I’m full of grief
Its got me
All the way down all the way down
All the way down all the way
I'm aging every morning
And when I sleep at night
I'm aging when I’m raging
Against the dying of the light
Its got me
All the way down all the way down
All the way down all the way
I'm aging when I’m certain
I'm aging when I’m wrong
I've been aging all winter
I'm even aging in this song
Its got me
All the way down all the down
All the way down all the way
I'm aging when I’m thinking
I'm aging when I forget
I feel it more each passing year
I'm aging the older I get
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2. |
Emo Since 2003
03:30
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Well you’re preaching to the chord here girl I’ve been emo since 2003
And I may not show it that much been living with my heart hanging out of my sleeve
My world got a little bit larger so my listening's in disrepair
I got rid of all my band T-shirts and black dye from my hair
So here’s to the suburban blues you kept me crying through the days of my youth
So here’s to the suburban blues you held me down when I needed you
Some say that it's a bit saccharine bit that midwest repressions a bitch
Well You need something overdramatic to brake that shell that you're hiding in
It's a release yeah it's a catharsis out here for a middle-class teen
You may be rich but you’re still feeling angsty won’t you listen to that white boy scream
So here’s to the suburban blues you kept me crying through the days of my youth
So here’s to the suburban blues you held me down when I needed you
Driving Singing my heart out on the I 264
The problems back then feel so small now a few years down the road
So here’s to all those emo bands that got me through those simpler times
I'll always have a place in my bleeding heart for some over-sentimental lines
I wanna save the day in American Football praticin’ on Thursday night
I know you're Brand New but We’re Taking Back Sunday over by Hawthorne Heights
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3. |
Every Night at the Bar
03:47
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I'd go every night, meet the guys at the bar
And we’d have a few drinks probably more than enough
I was stuck in a rut
At the old warehouse job
Something didn’t feel right
At the nine-to-five
And I knew that I had to get out of this town
But I didn’t know where and I didn’t know how
Cause nobody leaves here out on their own
Unless they're going to war or they're on a tombstone
Now I’m loading up semi’s
With a college degree
And I'm just one of the million
That debit weighing on me or things are changing it seems
Well Johnny likes whiskey
And Carlos had rum
Me I drank blue moon
Oh was so young
And I knew that I had to get out of this town
But I didn’t know where and I didn’t know how
Cause nobody leaves out on their own
Unless they're going to war or they're on a tombstone
I’d stay out late, with the guys at the bar
When I looked in their faces I saw myself many years on
Is that all we can say to live in this world
Working 8 dead-end hours for forty years of your life
That don’t seem right
That don’t seem right
And I knew that I had to get out of this town
But I didn’t know where and I didn’t know how
Cause nobody leaves here out on their own
Unless they're going to war or they're on a tombstone
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4. |
Horrible Love
04:48
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Come in my life
Control me
Rip out my heart
Completely
Do it again
I'll take that love any way that I can
Hold me to close
Consume me
Covet my friends
And use me
I'll take that love any old way I can
Don’t give it to me
But I want it
Please just give to me
I don’t want it
Won’t you give to me
Don’t give it to me, your horrible love
Wall up the void
With drama
Let's have a fight
I promise
I'll take that love any old way that I can
I'll take the pain
As long as
you take the blame
We’ll share this
Painful old love any way that we can
This world is hard
And lonely
Brutal and sad
The only
Consolation I have
Is you horrible love that I barely can stand
Don’t give it to me
But I want it
Please just give to me
I don’t want it
Won’t you give to me
Don’t give it to me, your horrible love
I'm a contradiction
Full of inconsistences
Of what I believe
I'm a human being
You may not want to be
You know you're just like me
Please give me all of your horrible love
I don’t want none of your horrible love
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5. |
Before You had to Go
03:51
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Do you remember those nights on the patio
With a bottle of wine and a friend or so
And we’d laugh and we’d tell our old stories we know
Before you had to go
And the words that we said didn’t mean too much
It was more like a feeling of comfort and trust
And we carried it with us, this old love we’d built up
Before you had to go
And leave us
And I miss you
I can't forget you
You’re been the love of my life since I was a girl
And I miss you
I wish I could kiss you
My beds gotten so cold without you around
And there’s a hole in the family that can never be filled
Were all thinking of you and we talk you still
When the kids all grew up
We started to roam
Do remember you took me all way up to Gnome
We saw glaciers and deserts and plane's from the road
Before you had to go
And I hope that it helped
I stayed with you all night
But I had to leave at the moment you died
I couldn’t be there when my whole world closed his eyes
But I know you had to go
And leave us
And I miss you
I can't forget you
You’ve been the love of my life since I was a girl
And I miss you
I wish I could kiss you
My beds gotten so cold without you around
I hope that I made you proud as your wife
I can’t say it's been easy without you beside
I know you had to go
And leave us
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6. |
I'm Not Writing Songs
03:57
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Is five years too many
To be lost in the weeds
For me, its been ten now
And I can’t see the forest for the trees
Time passes faster the older I get
I feel the weight more acutely
In my growing yoke of regrets
And things ain't turning out like I thought they would
I'm getting older now can someone help me out
I find it harder still for things to laugh about
It's like a thunder cloud that follows me around
There’s a villain in my head
And he knows all I think
And chants all my worries
And he keeps me afraid
Of creating of loving
I'm scared to be wrong
So I’m staying in stasis
And I’m not writing songs
Things ain't turning out like I thought they would
I'm getting older now can someone help me out
I find it harder still for things to laugh about
It's like a thunder cloud that follows me around
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Sunsets in Marrakesh
Looking over a precipice
If a tree falls in the woods will anyone hear
Fireworks in Budapest
Trying to hide from the pessimist
Am I alone or in a crowd it really unclear
And I think I’m a ghost
I think I’m a phantom
You can see right through me now
And I’m wanderin' round
Turning up stones
Looking for the other part of me
Barstool in Istanbul
Drinking out the insecure
Why does all the laughter sound so cruel
Barely holding on in old Lyon
Feeling lost without a home
Watching couples walk the river Rhone
I think I’m a ghost
I think I’m a phantom
Can anybody see me now
And I’m wanderin' round
Yelling at stones
Looking for the other part of me
I’ve been everywhere man
I’ve crossed the deserts bare
I’ve been everywhere man
Of traveling, I’ve had me share
Of traveling, I’ve had my share
I’ve been everywhere
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It's never enough
it's always too much
I can’t bear to stick around until the loneliness has got me down
Well I want to stay
I can’t wait to getaway
Everything and nothing all at once is never worth the cost
You miss my call and call me back then I don’t pick up
I got these people in my head and they can’t get enough
They got my turning all around I’m up and down and up
And now I’ve botched another one, it's got me feeling undone
Lonely and sick of people all at once
I'm lonely and sick of people
I'm lonely and sick of people
So hold me closely now
But make sure to look away
I can’t tell you how I feel but you should leave, no wait stay
Invite me out
put me down for a maybe though
I may be on the road I’ve never waited for god or gold
You miss my call and call me back then I don’t pick up
I got these people in my head and they can’t get enough
They got my turning all around I’m up and down and up
And now I’ve botched another one, it got me feeling undone
Lonely and sick of people all at once
I'm lonely and sick of people
I'm lonely and sick of people
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I called you seventeen
I called you seventeen
Times on the phone again
Acting like I’ve got no sense
Losing all self-respect
And so I
Waited in the parking lot across the street
With the car off in the cold of February
Waiting for you to end your shift so you can leave
And I waited, forty-three
Minutes for you to leave
And I waited, seventy
Minutes for you to leave
Felling the panic win
Waiting for the dread to end
And so I
Saw you walk across the parking lot with him
And you got in the car and kissed him hard in the front seat
And all of it was crumbling down inside of me
All of it was crumbling down inside of me
And oh how we yelled and we screamed that it was over
Through the blistering howling cold and all the falling snow.
And there’s no point ever hoping that well ever grow old
Together at least
Together at least
And I know it's over now
I was seventeen
And I know it's over now
I was seventeen
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10. |
Stringin' You Along
05:41
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Call me up
I'll let know what I’m thinking
I know I've been selfish and cruel
And it's been months
I've been pulling away from you
I know I've Been cold and aloof
My avoidance is an act of aggression
I've been lying to you baby
I've been stringing you along
I hung you up
I kept you from moving on
I stayed cause it was easier than being alone
And when I finally broke it off
I didn’t even have the balls to call
I sent you…. Well, I, sent you…. I sent you an email
What a shame what coward I am
What I fool
My avoidance is an act of aggression
I've been lying to you baby
I've been stringing you along
I never deserved you baby
Ive been stringin' you along
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11. |
The Coward's Path
04:15
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You can’t break a heart
With nothing in it
No matter how you spin it
No matter how you split it
So I keep smiling on
And I won’t admit it
If there’s hope forget it
I mixed up surrender with giving up
And I mixed up hiding with emptiness
I'll never forgive me ill always regret
This frail gold mask
That holds me back
I took the coward's path
For ten years now
The easy way out
The quite route
And I can’t escape
Can’t find a way out
Don’t have the strength to be found
My voice ain't loud
I mixed up surrender with giving up
And I mixed up hiding with emptiness
I'll never forgive me ill always regret
This frail gold mask
That holds me back
No matter how it seems
I'm not as happy as I appear to be
In the painful sum of things
I've crafted all my chains
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12. |
The Cost
03:54
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I used to be fine with loving
It was as natural as breath
But I lost something a few years ago
Traveling out the west
I think I thought too much about it
Now I'm in my head
Loves no longer a feeling
It's an academic concept
The stars used to seem to teem in the sky
Crowded together they’d burn bright up so high
Now they feel like distant points of light
Stoic and alone in the cold of the night
I have lived a selfish life
Full of wondrous things
But didn’t count on losing out
Of the joy a partner brings
All you do has a price to pay
Even if you don’t know the cost
A pawn can’t say that he won’t play
He’s on the let's start,
The stars used to seem to teem in the sky
Crowded together they’d burn bright up high
Now they feel like distant points of light
Stoic and alone in the cold of the night
But they’re all the same
No, it's me that changed
What brings me wonder
Now bring me pain
Now I can’t escape
The choices I’ve made
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Benjamin Dawson Louisville, Kentucky
Benjamin Dawson Is a singer-songwriter from Louisville, KY.
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